Man do I feel better!!

I feel so much better after i got that rant off my chest!! I have also found out since then that our insurance does have some additional support/appendixes for lack of a better word that offer me information, monetary aide and therapy outside of KU so i will be doing a lot of calling around about that tomorrow! On a side note, Chett has been telling me for years to change my eating habits and my sister even urged that I try lap band but like so many other people.... I don't like to do anything unless it is my idea, in my time, at my own doing. I hAte being told what to do and have been known to be stubborn in certain circumstances... Well at 34yrs old i had an epiphany. It finally occured to me the other day that the article i read on migraines said not to eat processed foods or refined sugars etc. then the article i read on depression said that it could be caused by processed foods etc. as i was reading an article about anxiety it mentioned diet of processed food etc... Are you seeing a pattern? OMG do you know what also causes obesity? Processed foods and all that...no joke! So. I have blogged before about exercising, losing weight, dieting etc. im not doing any of thAt. Right now, i just want to share with you that i am making an effort to be more healthy. Eat more fruits and veggies, drink more water... I had a hamburger patty and roasted brussel sprouts for dinner! I was starved by 10:00!! So i had a nutella and banana sandwich on wheat bread! Am i exercising? No, just having fun and burning calories with friends! Spent time todAy at the park with the kids! Im not weighing myself, not stressing! Sure, i had half a can a pop today, some peanut m&ms! Who cares!! I am a stubborn fat unhealthy woman who needs to take control! I need to be healthy and hydrAted and care about myself, after that....i think everything will fall peacefully and beautifully, happily into place. Good Daya To You! I Said, Good Day!!! Daya

Oh man, do I need to RANT!!!

Each year chett's ins gets worse and worse and worse! He works for KU Hospital, you would think we would get good benefits! He pays $650 a month and this year my co pay went up another $5 (it started at $0, then went to $5 and now it is $10) not horrible but I still have to use KU hospitals. I called last week to make an appt with the dermatologist and the first available appt is June 13th. My Psychologist quit seeing patients and I had to get a new one, they gave me a student that didn't speak fluent English. I was a suicidal, depressed, anxiety ridden, hair pulling, mess - i met with her and then immediately met with her attending to go over everything i just went over with her.... I left worse than I was. I got on the internet to find a new dr and the procedure to make an appt was to schedule an appt over the computer. It has been a week and no one has called.
The ins also no longer covers chiropractors, my prescription fees have gone up. Me dental is horrible, although that is Delta Dental not necessarily through KU. Oh and we don't have a choice anymore what plan we want through Blue Cross and Blue Shield - everyone gets the same one now.
I am so fucking pissed I could cry. I have no one to call and yell at, can't yell at blue Cross and Blue shield, what can they do? I could call and yell at KU but they are Chett's boss and are giving everyone the same treatment! We pay more in every month than we did last year, pay more in co-pays, pay more for prescriptions, not to mention I have to see KU doctors that either I have to wait 6 months to see or see a resident! It is all so BULLSHIT!!!!!!!
Not to mention the fact that I have been bleeding for 12 or so days and the bleeding just gets worse because I am transitioning to continuous birth control pills versus taking a pack, have a period, take a pack, have a period...So, I am in a GREAT mood! 
Oh, and I am on a diet! What do I want right now? a Donut! a Donut and Pepsi to make me feel better about KU raping me and my vagina.  But no, having roasted brussel sprouts. Did I mention I might cry?
On a side note, I am calling our ins tomorrow to see what I can do to find a psychologist/therapist not affiliated with KU, even if I have to pay more, it would be great to have one closer and one that I loved and who loved me.  Either way....my Mom is coming Thursday and this is going to be an amazing week. Donut or no donut. Fuck KU.


Good Daya To You! I Said, Good Day!!! Daya

The difference between a book and a story?

Before I start, I will let you know that this blog will not be funny but perchance informative.

As an English Major and avid reader, I have always read to my children. I read to them in the womb, buy them a book at every celebration.  Sang lullabyes and children's songs to them constantly.  In those long car rides after so many songs and unable to read while driving, I decided to start telling stories.  On a whim I make up a story about a Batman and Spiderman saving the townspeople from Bank robbers! Then I tell another story about witches and kids who don't mind their mothers, and by then they are asleep.

Today, like many days since then, Dayne asks me read him 3 books and tell him 3 stories. I barter and we settle on 2 books and 2 stories, then he forgets to pick out his books so I only tell 2 stories.
He likes the ones about the witches! I mixed it up today and told a story about a good witch and he didn't like it. I had to retell it about a witch who eats the lost boy, Dwayne, who didn't listen to his mom!

When in doubt, tell a story!
Good Daya To You! I Said, Good Day!!! Daya

throw me a friggin bone here.

i've decided for the purpose of writing blogs i am no longer going to participate in the usage of capital letters. it is simply a waste of my time to have to continually push the shift button and/or backspace delete, shift button etc.  goodbye capitals.
now to my point...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pIMsryG0g74
reasons i hate this commercial:
who would make such a giant bunny?
what do they do with the bunny when it is done?
no one would have space for that bunny in their house.
why would you waste that much material making that ridiculous bunny for this stupid commercial when a bag of leaves from central park would make the same impact?
is that bunny filled with poly fill?
seriously. i cannot watch this commercial without knowing what you do with that huge FUCKING BUNNY!
Good Daya To You! I Said, Good Day!!! Daya