FYI: PHAT = Pretty hot and tempting.
When I was pregnant with Dayne I only gained 8lbs (don't hate) so after he was born I was actually thinner than I was before I had him. He was 8lbs 3 oz. I was very excited and thought it would be easy to lose those few extra lbs to get to my goal weight! Well...60 lbs and 3 years later I am the fattest I have ever been. I hate my body and the way it looks. None of my clothes fit but I refuse to go buy extra clothes and conform to this body. I know that this weight is not good for me, mentally and physically. It depresses me and we all know I don't need help with being more depressed.
I am bound and determind to lose this weight! Now.
I recently went and talked to a friend about the diet she was on and while I am not doing exactly what she is doing I am trying to eat better. I eat small meals 5 times a day. I WILL start exercising. I want you all to call me out on this. I am writing this blog because I obviously don't have the will power to do this on my own. I hope that by being accountable maybe I will be more determined! My psychologist (that I have had for almost a year now) has even noticed the weight gain and that embarrasses me! I know I am fat and gained weight but to actually hear it from someone else is so humiliating.
I refuse to be this weight for summer. I refuse.
I would give anything to be athletic. To enjoy jogging. I have tried the couch to 5k before and not sure that I will get into that again. Not to make excuses but these boobs don't exactly make it easy to run. I do have a Dance game for the wii that would be better than nothing. My friend up the street has Wii fit. Walking would be nice but it is a little cold out.
I wish I could be hypnotized to LOVE jogging... or walking at least.
I know that if I was healthier, I would be happier.
So. That's all I have to say about that.
Stay Funny San Diego, Daya
Thursday, January 27, 2011
Wednesday, January 26, 2011
My mind on the way home from errands this evening...
So glad my appts coincide with rush hour traffic. Driving into the sunset too, great. Sunsets are both amazing and painful.
Much like miracles. Gees, I just threw up in mouth a little bit from the cheese of my last statement. Speaking of throwing up in my mouth a little bit, I have had some really bad heartburn lately. Heartburn from my antibitotics I bet. That's weird, I was just thinking of my heartburn and then mom texts me to ask about my heartburn. I wish I could text her back but I am driving.
There should be a way to text and drive or blog and drive, and then I could blog about this drive while I am on it. Hell there is prolly already a way, speak and blog or something but I just don't have the brains or the money for that stuff. You know, this thought process reminds me of someone with ADD. I am sure I don't have ADD though. I don't think I have it. I never had problems concentrating in class/school. I wish I could win pix your purse. I have been listening everyday but I am not going to wake up at 7am to try all the times you can call in.
I am so glad chett is making dinner tonight. although it would be really great if we could eat pizza. Pizza doesn't really fit into my diet. I should blog about my diet. I am really hungry. I should stop somewhere and get a coffee for myself for tomorrow morning. Nah. I have coffee at home. Save money and calories. Oh shit, I am almost home...I gotta get over. Excuse me. I know I know I am an asshole, didn't mean to cut you off, had no where else to go.
Stay Funny San Diego, Daya
Much like miracles. Gees, I just threw up in mouth a little bit from the cheese of my last statement. Speaking of throwing up in my mouth a little bit, I have had some really bad heartburn lately. Heartburn from my antibitotics I bet. That's weird, I was just thinking of my heartburn and then mom texts me to ask about my heartburn. I wish I could text her back but I am driving.
There should be a way to text and drive or blog and drive, and then I could blog about this drive while I am on it. Hell there is prolly already a way, speak and blog or something but I just don't have the brains or the money for that stuff. You know, this thought process reminds me of someone with ADD. I am sure I don't have ADD though. I don't think I have it. I never had problems concentrating in class/school. I wish I could win pix your purse. I have been listening everyday but I am not going to wake up at 7am to try all the times you can call in.
I am so glad chett is making dinner tonight. although it would be really great if we could eat pizza. Pizza doesn't really fit into my diet. I should blog about my diet. I am really hungry. I should stop somewhere and get a coffee for myself for tomorrow morning. Nah. I have coffee at home. Save money and calories. Oh shit, I am almost home...I gotta get over. Excuse me. I know I know I am an asshole, didn't mean to cut you off, had no where else to go.
Stay Funny San Diego, Daya
Tuesday, January 25, 2011
Who's in the mood for a good joke?
My Dad texted me this today, thought I would share.
Being a modest man, when I checked into my hotel on a recent trip. I hope the porn channel is disabled.
She replied, "No! It's regular porn, you sick bastard!"
Stay Funny San Diego, Daya
Being a modest man, when I checked into my hotel on a recent trip. I hope the porn channel is disabled.
She replied, "No! It's regular porn, you sick bastard!"
Stay Funny San Diego, Daya
GROSS!
Wylde has lost his 2 bottom teeth now! He tells me tonight after losing his 2nd one... "I can't eat my boogers anymore! These are the 2 teeth I used to chew my boogers!" Ugh. So Gross!!! I told him he shouldn't be eating them anyway! That is like eating DIRT!
As I am typing this he can read his name at the start of this blog and wants to know why I am typed his name. It used to be that as one got older they would be embarrased by old pictures or stories. I feel for this younger generation! Not only will they be embarrassed by photos and stories but these photos and stories are spread world wide and available 24/7! Woot.
Stay Funny San Diego, Daya
As I am typing this he can read his name at the start of this blog and wants to know why I am typed his name. It used to be that as one got older they would be embarrased by old pictures or stories. I feel for this younger generation! Not only will they be embarrassed by photos and stories but these photos and stories are spread world wide and available 24/7! Woot.
Stay Funny San Diego, Daya
Sunday, January 2, 2011
So my husband is supposed to be smart right?
There once was a family, driving to christmas with the family. Daddy driving, Mommy wishing she hadn't asked for the Chipmunk Soundtracks for the boys for Christmas, boys listening to Alvin and the chipmunks, hopefully about to nap in the backseat.
Daddy says "Do you have some nug?"
Mommy "Uh, what? Nug?"
Daddy "turn it around"
Mommy "Nug? Why do you need a nug? Oh, I get it you want to kill yourself because of the music."
Daddy "What? Kill myself?"
Mommy "You said you wanted a nug, backwards spells gun...."
Daddy "Oh! LOL I meant mug"
Mommy "Jesus Christ, they are asleep now would you like a piece of friggin GUM?"
Daddy "Yeah."
Stay Funny San Diego, Daya
Daddy says "Do you have some nug?"
Mommy "Uh, what? Nug?"
Daddy "turn it around"
Mommy "Nug? Why do you need a nug? Oh, I get it you want to kill yourself because of the music."
Daddy "What? Kill myself?"
Mommy "You said you wanted a nug, backwards spells gun...."
Daddy "Oh! LOL I meant mug"
Mommy "Jesus Christ, they are asleep now would you like a piece of friggin GUM?"
Daddy "Yeah."
Stay Funny San Diego, Daya
Today, it's all about my views on religion.
Don't know why I feel the need to blog about this but I do, even when my nails aren't 100% dry...I wanna blog about religion.
I don't 100% believe in God. I just don't understand if there is a God why different cultures' god is different, their bible is different etc. If there is a God he would be the entire people's God. I have never read the bible but i have been to church. Several different kinds of church as a matter of fact. I think the bible is like an aesops fable....a story made entertaining for the people of the ages to live without sin. Don't cheat on your wife, don't steal etc...
My whole take from religion is "treat others as you would have others treat you." Which is odd because when I went to church 80% of the church goers did just the opposite, looked down their noses, gossiped, sinned, cheated etc.
I can have faith and treat others with kindness from the comfort of my own home.
I believe in faith and the power of the people. When I wrote that i was depressed the mass amounts of kindess and people made me feel better.
I am always reminded of something that happened when I worked at the Turnpike, when people talk about God coming to your need....When I worked at the Turnpike a van filled with a husband, wife and I think 3 children were trapped in the flood and they were devout. They sat in their car and prayed for God to save them and 3 times that night a State Trooper came to their window and tried to persuade them to get out, urged them, begged them, but still they prayed for God to come. Everyone in that van drowned except for the father. If this story would have ended with "they prayed for God and God sent an Angel in the form of a Trooper and he saved the family", I might have believed in God that day. Instead I think those people were sad and ignorant.
If I believe in some faiths than I should disbelieve in ghosts, reincarnations, abortion, gay and lesbian marriage...and I refuse to do that. I believe I have felt ghosts. I believe my husband when he says he saw a ghost. I believe my children saw ghosts when they were younger. I believe there is a circumstance for every situation and some situations call for abortion. Do i think it is right for everyone? Hell No but can you imagine the mass amounts of unwanted and abused children out there without it? Everyone deserves love. Every person, man, woman, black, white, blue, pink. I judge no one. I al so am not one to discount anything if I have not seen it myself. I have never seen God so I don't disbelieve in him but I have seen kindness in others. I have seen the prosperity, value, of "Pass it On" - passing of the kindess. I have seen the benefits of kindness and giving of oneself.
So am I religious? In my one way, I am. the religion of Daya - where I treat others with kindness and believe in anything that could be possbile. I judge no one. Would you like to join the religion of Daya and sit at home wherever you and be kind to others??
I think if there was a God neither would he or she. I was lead to believe that God is a loving God. A god that says love others as you would want to be loved but only if they straight...not so much.
I also think it is ridiculous that you can ask forgiveness before you de and be forgiven for all your indescretions. So okay, I will steal and rape and murder and torture and live my life full of hate and loathing but as i lay dying I will ask god for forgiveness and he will open up his gate for me. I wouldn't do it.
Stay Funny San Diego, Daya
I don't 100% believe in God. I just don't understand if there is a God why different cultures' god is different, their bible is different etc. If there is a God he would be the entire people's God. I have never read the bible but i have been to church. Several different kinds of church as a matter of fact. I think the bible is like an aesops fable....a story made entertaining for the people of the ages to live without sin. Don't cheat on your wife, don't steal etc...
My whole take from religion is "treat others as you would have others treat you." Which is odd because when I went to church 80% of the church goers did just the opposite, looked down their noses, gossiped, sinned, cheated etc.
I can have faith and treat others with kindness from the comfort of my own home.
I believe in faith and the power of the people. When I wrote that i was depressed the mass amounts of kindess and people made me feel better.
I am always reminded of something that happened when I worked at the Turnpike, when people talk about God coming to your need....When I worked at the Turnpike a van filled with a husband, wife and I think 3 children were trapped in the flood and they were devout. They sat in their car and prayed for God to save them and 3 times that night a State Trooper came to their window and tried to persuade them to get out, urged them, begged them, but still they prayed for God to come. Everyone in that van drowned except for the father. If this story would have ended with "they prayed for God and God sent an Angel in the form of a Trooper and he saved the family", I might have believed in God that day. Instead I think those people were sad and ignorant.
If I believe in some faiths than I should disbelieve in ghosts, reincarnations, abortion, gay and lesbian marriage...and I refuse to do that. I believe I have felt ghosts. I believe my husband when he says he saw a ghost. I believe my children saw ghosts when they were younger. I believe there is a circumstance for every situation and some situations call for abortion. Do i think it is right for everyone? Hell No but can you imagine the mass amounts of unwanted and abused children out there without it? Everyone deserves love. Every person, man, woman, black, white, blue, pink. I judge no one. I al so am not one to discount anything if I have not seen it myself. I have never seen God so I don't disbelieve in him but I have seen kindness in others. I have seen the prosperity, value, of "Pass it On" - passing of the kindess. I have seen the benefits of kindness and giving of oneself.
So am I religious? In my one way, I am. the religion of Daya - where I treat others with kindness and believe in anything that could be possbile. I judge no one. Would you like to join the religion of Daya and sit at home wherever you and be kind to others??
I think if there was a God neither would he or she. I was lead to believe that God is a loving God. A god that says love others as you would want to be loved but only if they straight...not so much.
I also think it is ridiculous that you can ask forgiveness before you de and be forgiven for all your indescretions. So okay, I will steal and rape and murder and torture and live my life full of hate and loathing but as i lay dying I will ask god for forgiveness and he will open up his gate for me. I wouldn't do it.
Stay Funny San Diego, Daya
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